Thanks for checking in with the community this holiday season, @Jacqui. You’re right, they’re tough! Looking back and many of my holidays have been impacted by addiction - skipping holiday gatherings because my husband was in rehab, spending New Years apart while he was in rehab, nodding off or nowhere to be found at Thanksgiving gatherings, and most recently, last holiday season my husband had a slip up which I found out about days before Christmas. So it’s a triggering time for sure.
Sometimes I look back at holiday photos and I remember what phase of recovery he was in during that time, and the loneliness and hopelessness I was feeling. But even then, feeling totally stuck and not in the holiday spirit, I was still taking photos because a part of me knew there was still some light to be found in those days. We still had moments together as a family, and many years we had holidays seasons completely clean and sober.
So to my Village Community, wherever you are and wherever your loved one is in addiction/recovery, please know that there’s always light to be found. This season, I’m thankful that I took photos even when I was feeling sad. I’m thankful for crisp fall air, getting out of work early, Black Friday sales, hot cocoa season, mashed potatoes and stuffing. I’m thankful that after three years of moving to a new city, my husband is finally finding people to hang out with. I’m thankful for progress, not perfection, the ability to find hope even in darkness, and sharing that hope with others.
Thinking of some of our Family Support Study Peer Group participants and tagging them here - would love to hear from you this week! @va.ra @zealand6868 @sb0822 @seapa @jen28 @sammiesame @Deanna1 @JoMama @Alair @ede @Sheri @beckycornell47 @jewelrydiva70 @Blissly @Fizzy